I saw her in the lot

like a tangible foe?Do you seek it, or merely accept itlike an unavoidable opponent?Is it to be welcomed, with open armsas an enabling experience?You tell me yours, I’ll tell you mine.Pain… She was my first loverMy most intimate friend,but a demanding mistress, she is…The more you fight her,she more she hurts youwith no safe word…

People saw and turned awaybecause I was nobodyI was what was made of meBy birth I was a survivorI was a child in needvictim of crimes unseenFearful, guarded and waryforced to grow up all too soonWhat do you seewhen you look at meA monster, a lost cause,a wayward soula hopeless being perhapsEach day I try,I…

searching- trying to findwhat was to be my lifeThen one nighttaking a walkjust six blocksfrom our homeCame a carbarreling at ushow I shoutedand I shovedMy lover was safethen I was hitall went blackthere went my lifeSeven days laterI awoke into Helldressed in bandagespain and nothing moreVague visionsdoctors and nursesshouted whispersexploding my headWords I heard:brain damage,paralysis,and…

for all the horrid deeds done to methat which I could not repressI redirected at meso strong was my fearso ingrained the self loathingI must have been horribleI must have been uglyI must have been stupidand unworthyelse you would have loved meSo many years it tookto know this is falseSo many years of my life…

What with which to fill this large aching void?They say that they love me, but cannotBecause they have not what I needWhat is this thing I needThis thing they see so clearly?They speak of failing meThey worry they will hurt me,They can’t give me what I desireLike these things are strangers to meWhat about me?I…

my fearful, restless,shattered soulYou’ve awakenedemotions I thought to bedead and buried long agoyou gave them lifeYou are my shelterin place of a dwellingIt is you who are my shelteroffering me protectionLove, Life, HopeYou have given meSuch wondrous giftsYou are a GoddessI love youMy InspirationMy Love, My LifeMy Everything