And when we kissed in nakedness…
With closed eyes it was you I felt!
When you decided to leave me alone,
I was bitter at the start.
I promised I would forget you in my mind.
And each time I did that…
There you were in my heart.
I wish that we would agree to meet,
To discuss our faults and dishonesty.
But when you left me with cruel things done…
That was it…I thought!
No more nonsense from anyone!
Those were lies I told myself…
Attempting to hide reality,
On a dusting shelf!
With disappointment and pain,
And everything else.
Even though you and I will never see eye to eye,
I hold you inside with lies I can’t deny!
It is you that has taken my heart like this!
And being with someone new…
Will never erase the you I miss!
I’ve admitted to myself it is you I truly wish.
And making love with someone new…
Can not undo or dismiss,
The ‘you’ that quick!
Or giving myself in repeated nakedness,
Not as long as you can find me…
Bared with feelings mixed!