Lawrence S Pertillar

I see the ‘me-me I-I’ in you.

May 10, 2020May 10, 2020

Glued to myself too!
Thinking the world didn’t exist,
Until I awakened.
With beliefs that my wants,
Belonged to everyone’s wishes.
And on my tantrum days…
I went ballistic!
If my needs were not being fulfilled!
Whether or not…
It took magic to make my whims realistic.
And then one day I was slapped by truth!
When I took a backseat to a waning youth.
Maturing made that happened.
Glad I am that it did.
I was getting to the point I couldn’t stand myself.
And there’s nothing like watching a grown man in tears…
Because he doesn’t like himself,
Or who he is!
Or what he has done to make others run!
Today I thank God that guy has gone!
Now I deal with someone…
Who thinks he knows more about life than anyone!
And ‘now’ I don’t know which one I’d rather deal with!
At least I am kept entertained!
‘I thought we were talking about me? ‘
We were!
But don’t you think I am a better topic?
Comeon…
Be subjective about it!

Lawrence S Pertillar

Stunted in adolescence.

Byammarkhan May 10, 2020May 10, 2020

Lead like sheep,With no thoughts they keep.Seeking to be entertained…While remaining irresponsibly unaware.Trapped and caged…Growing older as they age.Seeking approval for actions,Found today…Intolerable!But these are the elders,Who hid themselves in shelters.Now they want to hangout…To be accepted like the children.And exchange with them,Hop hop rap!And getting ‘down’ with dirty mouths!

Lawrence S Pertillar

After attracting my attention,

Byammarkhan May 10, 2020May 10, 2020

With the aid of my friends and family.And upgrading degrading techniques,Of perfected backstabbing skills you inflicted.You now say you have learned your lessons?I am quite curious! ?How did you think I felt…And where did you think I was,As you practice your vendettas?Sipping lemonade as you paradedYour dislike for me?There is not a cheek on me…

Lawrence S Pertillar

Sixty four cents.

Byammarkhan May 10, 2020May 10, 2020

Sixty four cents per gallon of gas.Maybe decades ago…We too could say.But today with our ‘greatness’And propaganda that is spread.A dozen of apples,And perhaps the cost of embarrassment…May be less,Than the price of a loaf of bread.That’s what they pay,In Saudia Arabia each and every day!And ‘he’ who leads this great land of ours…Was turned…

Lawrence S Pertillar

I ‘should’ care…

Byammarkhan May 10, 2020May 10, 2020

Yet when I was in despair…You weren’t there at all!You actually expect me,In your descend to cushion your fall?Like you I am a work-in-progress!Stumbling and learning…How to stand tall from a crawl!My heart is not made of steel.My feelings like yours are very real!And what goes around comes back around!This lesson your experiencing now…For me…

Lawrence S Pertillar

If there is anything I’ve ever done,

Byammarkhan May 10, 2020May 10, 2020

And represented to invoke the growth,And the understanding of it.I think that would be okay!I’ve laid down some ‘art’.Not the greatest.And perhaps rated,As not my best effort.I will be the first to agree.I am still in My Father’sCreative hands.There is going to be some blemishes,Before enhancements.Who doesn’t know that’s what this process is?If it is…

Lawrence S Pertillar

Stalked by fear and unlimited ambition,

Byammarkhan May 10, 2020May 10, 2020

To expect sheer excitement meant.There has to be an intention.Something that isolates and propells one to deliver.Maybe some of this chat is more than delicatessen.Many enjoy sharing their brave conquests over lunch.As they mark down time…And their lives,Planning to fulfill wishes.Once they are eligible…To retire!Like prepared meats!Packaged and ready to be served,At the right time

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