When I made you, I loved you.

your face swimming among minnows and the smallechoing stars. In the night airthe surface of the pond is metal.Within, your eyes are open. They containa memory I recognize, as thoughwe had been children together. Our poniesgrazed on the hill, they were graywith white markings. Now they grazewith the dead who waitlike children under their granite…

The ecstatic reds of the roses,So that you will come to it with your lovers.And the willows–See how it has shaped these greenTents of silence. YetThere is still something you need,Your body so soft, so alive, among the stone animals.Admit that it is terrible to be like them,Beyond harm.

Then back to the world, polished by soft whips.We dream; we don’t remember.Machine of the family: dark fur, forests of the mother’s body.Machine of the mother: white city inside her.And before that: earth and water.Moss between rocks, pieces of leaves and grass.And before, cells in a great darkness.And before that, the veiled world.This is why…

Laughter, because the air is full of apple blossoms.When I woke up, I realized I was capable of the same feeling.I remember sounds like that from my childhood,laughter for no cause, simply because the world is beautiful,something like that.Lugano. Tables under the apple trees.Deckhands raising and lowering the colored flags.And by the lake’s edge, a…

of a bed of grass, mown so neatly it could have beenmy father’s grave, although there was no stone saying so.You’re stepping on your father, she repeated,louder this time, which began to be strange to me,since she was dead herself; even the doctor had admitted it.I moved slightly to the side, to wheremy father ended…

His family’s; later picking up the mammothGirlfriend of Charlie, meanwhile trying to pawn me offOn some third guy also up for the weekend.But Saturday we still were paired; spentIt sprawled across that sprawling acreageUntil the grass grew limpwith damp. Like me. Johnston-baby, I can still seeThe pelted clover, burrs’ prickle fur and gorgedPastures spewing infinite…